kk what was i saying? Anyway, CA1 of PRMP and TVSM is finally over. 2kg of load off my shoulders and it definitely feels much better. hehe.
My sister's keeper is a wake-up call to cherish every drop of life flowing in our veins, keeping and maintaining our humanity through an inspiring lesson exemplified by a brave soul about to face the shadow of death itself. For after all, maybe the value of life comes in knowing that we will someday die and therefore, driving us to live our fullest. In that aspect, I guess death serves its purpose.
So darn inspiring..
Ignorance can be a bliss, but curiosity overwhelms it and in turn, kills the cat...
How true.
Don't get me wrong though, God exists, but how true are our sources? Especially ancient manuscripts that had been passed on from men to men. Countless alterations and in the end making the scriptures our own doctrine. Therefore I believe that our perception of the Divine may be flawed. Many people asked me why I become the way I am right now. Yes I have selfish issues but they are mediocre compared to the philosophical and spiritual maelstrom in the mind. And before I can commit myself again to follow what these doctrines teach, I need to be sure that they are accurate. Otherwise, we are all living a lie aren't we? For after all the truth shall set us free doesn't it?
Maybe I think too much, but I can't help and I don't wanna be part of a congregation of individuals, lacking self-identity, controlled by the system which acts like a hive mind. Then again, my own perception can be wrong, seriously wrong...
On the other hand, the holidays are pretty much awesome so far. It's more than I could ask for, with an equal amount of rest and fun(although the resting part can be quite boring, like now). I didn't get an opportunity to work or rather, was too lazy to try harder in the search for jobs. Doing stuff which I would consider crazy in the past, crossing boundaries, regretting and yet enjoying my actions, wondering what in the world happened to me and why the sudden seperation from Someone so dear.
As I'm typing this, I caught a glimpse of that little portrait of Jesus which is leaning against the wooden photoframe on the shelf, beside my baby picture. I looked deep into the eyes that stared directly back to me. One of compassion and sorrow, so deep that I can almost sense it... I turned away.
People change, don't they?
Yes. I know I did.
That true love is as easy to find
In this contemporary era
Not hindered by that barrier of fear
Untainted by lust, distrust and the motive for gain
Remaining sacred in it's own little sanctuary
Portraying two, in the beauty of their own imperfection,
Accepting each other for who they truly are
From the bottom of their hearts
Not experimenting in order to get satisfaction
But walking together through the valley of death
And forging a bond so strong
Unable to be broken by forces external
Just like Enoch and God
Sticking till the end of days
Becoming one to the point
Where even death does both no part.
Today's visit to Az's house was awesome. The most memorable part was the delicacies prepared by her mum and not forgetting, the company. :)
- Music:Pretend - Secondhand Serenade
Visited The City Church, Cornerstone, with Yang Rong in the morning at 10am today. Therefore, I had to wake up at like 8am to prepare. Service was per normal, and the sermon was once again about being salt and light to the world. Oh, and not forgetting, the call to repentance which was strangely awkward as the Pastor was constantly urging us to repent and go back to God. So Yang Rong, being his irritating self, nudged me and told me to repent. I was like, c'mon, we're like the fallen ones already haha. Complacency won the battle again I guess.
After service, we went to eat the epic prawn noodles at Potong Pasir (the church was just a stone's throw away) and had a lil' chat over our issues and stuff. Then, we parted out ways.
Evening approached and I had dinner with xn, mark, keef, yaseen and nicholas at Lagoon. We were talking about the good ol' days in St. Pat's and how we were one of the most notorious schools in the east. Honestly, some of the things we did in the past were kinda stupid but ultimately, these are the things which are heavily etched in our minds. I still remember my label as "The Porn King" and " The Gangster with the Buddha tattoo on the back". Seriously, I dun even know how these labels came about LOL. And I'm not proud of them for anyway, the past is the past. And if I continue to write about what we did, I guess, it would take more then 10 posts to contain them. So to cut the long story short, we had a good laugh over our foolish past-selves and headed over to mark's house to chill.
4 years just like that. And 1 1/2 years more to my next graduation before going in to serve NS. Time really flies...
Escaping reality
Maintaining self control
Obtaining significance through contemplation
- Mood:
thankful
I love my mum. She's great. :)
Science tells me that God must exist
Sources tell me that Jesus is the Son of God
Religion reveals failed attempts to reach the Divine
And the doings of man distorts the truth ought shine
You show me your 66 books contained
I ask about the 7 forsaken
You base your teachings in a sphere of interpretation
Unaware that you are just like me
I question and it is seen as unhealthy
but ain't a seeking heart what's meant to be?
Your mouth proclaims
Your heart chases fame
Methods to draw, leaving your root
a commercial hidden beneath godliness
The multitutes come, you jump for joy
The backslidders fall, you don't give two hoots
Caught up with numbers
You care less 'bout your treasures
Is that what it's suppose to be?
The fame, the recognition and the respect
Which amounts to nothing
Come, jump and speak in your gibberish
Be like a clanging cymbal and sounding gong
for at the heart of it all
We're only human
- Music:Loving the Alien - Velvet Revolver! :D
Awww. She made my day. :)
- Music:Fireflies!
What happens if there are 7 guys and 1 car?
You squeeze 5 asses in the front and 2 at the back/boot.
And yes, that's what we did.
Initially, it was only Lixing. But I ended up being in the boot of the car together with him as we journeyed from Mark's to Eduoard's house to celebrate his birthday. So it goes like this, in order to prevent suffocation, we had to hold on to the latch from the inside so that the boot will not be totally covered. I was also telling LX that if some ah pek rams the car from the back, I'm so gonna be fuwaked up. And LX better thank me for being his meat shield. This is because I'm lying on the outer side of the boot. Oh, and as we were about to alight, or rather, get of from the boot, we realised that an SBS bus was just right behind. Looking at 2 freaking mad cows getting out from the ass of the car as if this is a case of kidnap. The result, we laughed. I think many people saw us. All in all, we had fun and that is the sex! =D
I damaged my acoustic guitar in the process of changing the strings. Now it needs repair.
It is raining outside now. I like it when it rains in the middle of the night. It just feels different.
The light from the sun in the day conceal
The downpour the night would reveal
A facade so much like any other
Is reflected in the person of nature
Oo. I just came up with that. :D
